Jessi Draper Ngatikaura is sharing an update on her plastic surgery results. After documenting her recovery following multiple cosmetic procedures, including an upper and lower blepharoplasty, which removes excess skin from the eyelids, according to the Mayo Clinic, as well as facial fat grafting to restore the lost volume in her face, she shared that she isn't satisfied with the final outcome.
"I want to tell everyone that I am extremely unhappy with my results and I didn't quite understand what I was getting into, to be honest," she said in a Mar. 6 TikTok video. "I went in for a lower bleph and then I asked about an upper bleph and ended up getting that. [I] Did not want fat grafting, to be honest. I just listened to a suggestion, not really understanding what it was, what it would do, what the results would be, or what the recovery would entail."
"And I really wish I would have asked more questions," she added. "I wish I wouldn't have done it. I wish I would have said, 'No.'" Jessi also noted that the grafting was "put in [her] lips," which she didn't "ask for [and] didn't want," causing them to appear "really lumpy."
In an attempt to correct the results from the graft, the 33-year-old said that she got Kybella—injections that are used to reduce fat under the chin, according to Mayo Clinic—to slim her face down. The reality TV star, mom to Jagger, 5, and Jovi, 3, with husband Jordan Ngatikaura, also shared how the surgeries have taken a toll on her mental health.
"I've really been struggling," she added. "I genuinely feel like this last surgery ruined my life." Later, she added of her appearances in the upcoming season of Mormon Wives: "I look f--king hideous all of season 5. My face is swollen. My eyes look crazy. I don’t look like how I used to and I hate it."
And while she initially got plastic surgery to boost her self-esteem, the results have made her realize just how much she preferred her appearance before the procedures. "I have such self-confidence issues," she explained. "And looking back, I can totally see how I was blinded by those insecurities and wasn't able to say that I was beautiful a few months ago. Now, I can say that. Unfortunately, I went way too far because of those insecurities."
"It's like the biggest learning lesson of my whole life that I'll never touch my face again outside of botox," she quipped. "And I really wish I would have been able to see my inner beauty earlier."
